Yesterday

Yesterday I was quite a bit moody cos I could not explain why I felt that way. Perhaps I realised that time flew too fast and my bond with the PSC would expire soon. It is like that u are coming to the crossjunction again with so many road signs pointing here and there. And I had to make a real hard decision on where I can head for.

So, i just ignored my feelings and went for the draogon boat training. It was funny that whenever I went for the training, i tended to look around at dragon boaters and would ogle at them for a moment. But that day, I did not have a mood to stare at them. :( Feeling lousy and I forced a smile in front of my fellow mates. Anyway, I took the cox rower to steer the direction of the boat. Everyone went down to the boat and off we rowed the boat. For the first few rounds of training, it was terrible and I was growing impatient with the rowers who were not putting in enough effort. So, i volunteered to take up the time pacer and wanted to push the rowers harder. So, I went to the bow of the boat and took the timing of the boat. It was much more better and rigorous than before and I began to ask everyone how they felt. They felt good and more coordinated with each other. I felt much better now.

Before we went back to the berth, we did around 8 sets of rigorous training i.e. 20 power sets, 50 long and hard pulls, 10 slow-down strokes, 20 power sets and 60 long and hard pulls to the end of the training set.

Then we did the cool down exercise and I decided to take my time to sit down and gaze into the space. Jane was very nice to keep me accompanied and asked me what was wrong with me. I told her that I was just feeling lost and nothing was serious. It was just that I was feeling like I was at the quarter crisis. I told her that I was doing some career homework from "What is the colour of my parachute?" and I asked her whether she was interested in doing with me.
She said okay as she also faced quarter crisis too. I explained to her what was being needed. Then I shared with her that I may not jump into the photography line quickly and I may try out the company which is closer to the photography..say marketing line or something related to the camera industry to allow me to gain better insight of the photography. Then after chatting for 1 hour, we went to shower ourselves. In my toilet, no one except me bathed... so sad :(

After showering quickly, I went outside to wait for Jane and I thought of photographing her with the dragon boats. And I took some shots of her as she would be sending her shots to Her World magazines.

After that we went to Le Meriden food court to have Thai food and I saw a Russian deaf girl who was peddling her pins to the customers. I saw her the day before at Sun Plaza and she approached me to buy her stuff. Then i saw a gay ang moh who always looked at me several times and I told Jane that he always liked to look at Asian twinks hee...and Jane said that the way he walked was exactly the same as me..Haa..Yes I knew ! The way I walked was like I was trained to be a ballet dancer like Elliot as when I walked, my heel of the foot never touched the ground. Then we left the food court and I realised that I forgot to take my blue mat. I ran back to the foodcourt to retrieve my blue mat and I walked back. Jane was waving at me frantically and she asked me to come to her quickly. She pointed to 2 guys holding each other openly and she said that guy was my ex ! Really? Then I tried to find him and saw him putting his arm around his date's shoulders. I signed to her let's see what the other date looked like. In my mind, Jane must be worried for me as I may have some feeling for my ex. But in reality my feeling for my ex is already dead long time ago and I have already buried my feeling in my graveyard. So, we ran among the crowd, catching some glimpses of his date but we could not see clearly. My ex as usual would lock his arm with his date's arms and they stopped outside Old Chang Kee shop to buy deep-fried stuff. Then we discussed what we should do and we ran to the opposite end and pretended buying stuff. Then we noticed that my ex and his date walked our way and we pretended not to see them. We pretended to point to the stuff and we noticed that 2 of them walked past us without saying hi to me. Then we turned around and saw his date looking at me. My ex did not look back at me. I knew it. My ex must have whispered to his date "Hey, my ex is here with his friend, Jane." and that was why his date craned his neck to see how I looked like. Anyway, Jane shrugged her shoulder giving me a sign that my ex did not say hi to me. We walked opposite direction, gossiping about that couple. Then along the way, we bumped into another deaf girl who was rushing off for her wedding dinner. We chatted for a while and then we walked to the Kinokuniya bookstore to take look at the career guidance books.

We fished out some books like What is the colour of parachute, careers with photography, careers using languages, etc..We stayed there for 1 hour before we went to the Wheellock Place to see photo exhibition. After browsing the photos, we stumbled across the photography book which was written in Japanese and English. Jane wanted to test my Japanese skils. So, I read the Japanese sentence and tried to translate into English. Then she referred to the English sentence and found that my translation was quite close. After testing me for a few sentences, Jane seemed to be convinced that my Japanese linguisitc ability was not bad after all and I thought to myself why not try to work in the Japanese company like Canon, Nikon camera company in Japan? I toyed with my idea and then I parted my way with Jane. When I went down to the Borders, I noticed some 4 guys pointing their fingers at me and looking brazenly at me as though there was something wrong with my face or I forgot to zip my pant or what. It was quite kind of offence to stare at me brazenly in the broad daylight and I saw another guy at the corner stealing his look at me.

I shrugged it off cos I was too tired to bother with all kinds of catty looks and I went home. In fact, thank to Jane who accompanied me and shared fun, I feel a bit better hee..